I’ve been thinking a fair bit today.
After going on what now feels like a mini verbal rampage over at Merovee, I feel strangely ashamed. It’s like I almost went over there to blow off some steam. I am actually very lucky in my life & yet we all carry fears & uncertainties around with us. It feels slightly seedy. Like a kind of on-line brothel for the soul. Where one can vent one’s worst fears once in a while. A needed release in a seemingly ever more tense & chaotic world. Should you ever see this … Thanks Frank, Viktor & all the other great people there
That set me thinking about the Internet as a whole. There’s so much negativity & fear on line but when one goes out into the “real world” it all melts away & life (where I am lucky enough to live) seems as calm & as steady as ever. It’s easy to get sucked into “narratives of doom” on line but I always try & ground myself. I watch the animals. I look at the trees & plants & lastly I look at the people.
I’ve noticed a funny thing.
People who don’t go on line are totally oblivious to the supposed “collapse of the Planet” that we see constantly touted on line. The young children look as vibrant & as lively as they ever have, not distressed, not diseased & by & large people seem fine. There’s food in the Super-Markets, loads of it … no sign of “collapse” there … obviously I am very lucky to live in a part of the world that is, as yet, relatively untouched by the crisis engulfing other parts of our Planet.
So what then is going on? It’s almost like two parallel worlds literally.
Out “there” (in my local environment) all is calm & yet in “here” (the on line world) so much is in turmoil? But the reverse is also true – in here (my local vicinity) all is calm & yet out there … (in the wider world) is much chaos & suffering. (witness Syria or Venezuela ) The thing about the World is that in a sense, all things are happening at once, what I mean by that is that if you think of it as one huge equation within an information field then all combinations of the action & “players” happening at one time must in a sense happen when they do, as they are all a result of every preceding action through the fabric of time leading up to that point (combined with perhaps a smidgen of free will thrown in but free will broadly within the confines of what is possible within ones limited field of action, for instance, I can’t suddenly beam myself physically to another country, or I can’t suddenly engage in a one to one conversation with someone famous who doesn’t even know that I exist but I can decide whether to carry on typing these thoughts out or not & I can engage my imagination)
The Internet is a funny thing. It feels so private & yet it is public. That feeling of privacy & intimacy encourages us to express much more openly our deep & hidden fears & to explore our most intimate & hidden desires (through pornography etc.) as it “feels” private – almost like a modern day “confessional” & yet it is far from “private”.
Leaving aside the question of A.I. for the moment. If we think about it the Internet is literally a load of inter-connected biological brains all communicating together almost like telepathy. All communicating their deepest fears & concerns & their wildest speculations. In a way it is like the dark subconscious mind of collective man. (men & womb men both)
We influence each other & egg each other on to ever more wild speculations & deeper contemplations & so we collectively go ever more slightly crazy but at the same time our perspective widens considerably to take on more & more of a view of the “whole” than we ever thought possible & so we feel ourselves changing. Hopefully we feel our understanding & empathy for our fellow man increase along the way. How i wish that was true, alas, the opposite seems to often occur. Yet, in reality, all is always in flux, atheists become theists & theists become atheists, the tolerant become the intolerant & the youthful radical eventually become (at least declared by others) the reactionary – witness recent events with Jermaine Greer or Peter Thatchell for instance.
The Internet, whether it be a blog or a video, a news site or anywhere else encourages us to give freely of ourselves – to share, our knowledge, our ideas, the idea being that “progress” becomes exponential as Ray Kurzweil & others have predicted.
And yet far from being in any way private really we are literally handing the best, the worst & all the rest of ourselves, over to companies like Google & Facebook & WordPress for them to literally mine our minds. Now one could argue that data in formation & stories are the real stuff of immortality. The stuff that outlasts our biological “space-suits”.
We are still telling stories to each other that are over two thousand years old – the living word – quite literally of our ancestors. So our stories outlast our selves by a long chalk. And ironically we, living breathing biological beings, hand over our “data” to “dead” corporations to hold in perpetuity. These corporations are literally “mining” our minds & will perhaps outlast our individuality. And yet these companies themselves are “dead” lifeless things (corp – orations) without at least some form of sentience
I have many things that I have learnt over my life time. Though I am just one unremarkable human amongst the billions of us. When I read someone like Gildas or Bede it feels like a form of Time Travel. The living word of the long dead mind / mined comes down to me through the ages & speaks to me directly. The thoughts thought by someone centuries ago literally talk to me. And that persons thoughts literally live once again through me as I read
How beautiful & transcendent is that?
We are all a part of this process & passing on any small wisdom that my “wizened wise dome” might have collected in my 50 + years on Planet Earth is what this blog is supposed to be about. i feel that I sort of have a duty to pass on my observations but it’s a strange feeling sharing your most private thoughts to potentially prying “I’s” about whom one knows absolutely nothing. It makes me feel vulnerable like my thoughts are no longer strictly my own. It’s inherently risky. It also garners in me some sympathy for our Political classes & celebrities. It can’t be easy for anyone to “put their head above the parapet” so to speak. It takes courage – a courage only too tragically demonstrated by the appalling death of U.K politician Jo Cox in recent days.(Assuming here that it occurred as reported – you’d have to be blind not to have come across the so-called “hoax” phenomenon as reported by some. And to be honest there are elements to this case that disturb me but I’ll keep those concerns to myself as i don’t enjoy spreading malicious gossip or rumor about on-line) Politicians are said to be Public Servants & a savant is someone who has an extraordinary ability (at least in one field) unfortunately in recent years it would appear that too many of these gifted people have been more interested in serving themselves & their vested interests than serving the greater good. Jo Cox, it appears, was not of that school. She was, if her maiden speech is anything to go by, one of the “good guys”.
Fear of death seems to be at the heart of so much human conflict. The cause of so much misery. If you look closely enough you will find that at root many of the problems in our world today come down to a fear of death. Or perhaps more accurately a fear of “dying”. Likewise with religion. Death! That most alarming “rite of passage” that we all know we must go through at some point. The instinct for survival is the most basic drive & instinct programmed in to all living biological forms. And yet we all know in our hearts that one day we all must die. Even if we could extend life by many centuries at some point we’d still all die. It’s the ultimate paradox & causes us much subconscious distress. It is my feeling that this is built into the system. However, it’s not really “death”. It may just be renewal. We discard one biological space-suit (or virtual reality shell – which includes our environment, for another) The whole quest of Science has been to re-re-member this if you like.
Life! – the ultimate “multilayer mutli-player” game. (Science / séance)
Perhaps this “life” is just one level of a very complex game.
Perhaps that is what the rise of “on-line gaming” & virtual reality head-sets is really trying to tell us.
It comes down to anthropic & entropic principles. Look at all the changes that we have seen in our own lives. If you are over 40 or certainly 50 you will probably understand. From the seemingly (looking back) simple world of the 1960’s we now find ourselves in the ever increasingly complex world of 2016. From facing “imminent destruction” by atomic bombs in the 60’s we now live in a world where we apparently face “imminent destruction” from … well, take your pick really … pandemics, failing antibiotics, bio-warfare, the rise of hybrid armies, cloning, Morgellons, Chemtrails, A.I. Quantum Computers … the list just goes on & on.
But could this all just be a trick of perception? Remember those youngsters I mentioned? Fresh faced & innocent & totally oblivious to all the “horrors” that are waiting to engulf them as their perceptions widen and they take in more “data”?
Leonard Susskind argues that data is in fact entropy whilst the hidden Sephirot on the Kabbalah is called Da’at. An anagram of data
Be careful what you seek for. Perhaps ignorance really can be bliss.
Imagine for a moment if one were to achieve considerable life-extension. How many “threats” would one be surrounded by? Too many to withstand for long? Perhaps then the human lifespan as paltry as it seems to us is in & of itself a blessing? Our mortality itself a chance for renewal? Heresy to our society. But if that is the case, then why so terrifying? Well, for one thing, to encourage us to “stay in the game” for as long as it takes. If it were that easy to quit perhaps we would give up too easily. Before we have learnt what we came here to learn. Dr Richard Alan Miller maintains that this is where we come to be “spiritually sick” – a kind of hospital if you will. I think there might be something to that idea.
My old mum is now 96 years old. Bless her! When she was younger she would encourage me to give up smoking as she was worried it would “carry me off prematurely” now she warns me to not live as long as she herself has – ironic eh? She’s never had a days illness in her life. Never once shown any gratitude for it. Thankfully nature has been kind & she’s still with us. I say thankfully from purely selfish reasons – I don’t want her to go.
My neighbor was in his late 80’s & after struggling bravely to remain independent for as long as he could he has just succumbed to a stroke. In one way it seems that there are no pots of gold at the end of the rainbow. Not this side of the veil anyway. We got a one-way ticket to ride & yet the “pot of gold” that we all seek has actually been there all along right in front of our eyes. (Our I’s) do you have your health? Can you go out for a walk today & enjoy the fresh air & the sunshine? The bounty of this wonderful world
Then what the fuck are you moaning about?
Do you have a partner? Kids? Then why are you disgruntled? But that’s human nature! Always consumed by what it hasn’t got – rather than giving thanks for what we have been given!
So do I fear death?
Of course i do, absolutely – i really appreciate my life. The simple days are the best & most beautiful, as one gets older it’s the little things that make life so awesome. & who doesn’t fear the unknown? At least to some extent. And yet at the same time we have to come to accept that there is no “right time” to die. A good friend’s father was killed in The Hungerford Massacre. A tragic & terrifying way to die I am sure & yet when the autopsy came through it showed that he had had terminal cancer anyway which would have carried him off at any time regardless. At the end of the day when your number is up your number is up but that is precisely why I have faith.
We are actually completely powerless against such a force as death / costume change.It will get us regardless of where or how we try to hide so why try to hide at all?
No point in hiding. No point in trying to keep quiet but I think that I am here for a purpose, as are you & that purpose is yet to reach completion.
I am here to fulfill a promise I made not only to myself but to a much higher power
& in that power I trust …
Life is a beautiful gift – please don’t waste it.
Let’s not fight each other. The only real “enemy” is time itself. The ultimate destroyer & yet the supplier of all we have so how can even he be our enemy? At the last hurdle even time itself is our friend. A most dear companion. Old Father Time.
(TIME/EMIT)




